saturn’s kicking some ass
This is it. My real life QBR. In a month’s time. I will need to make 38grand monthly through freelance work-at-home jobs.
I’d like to think I can do this. But I also know I’m being TOO positive.
Pareho tayo Rye, I think I need one of these…
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pero sana yung kasya dito….
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wehehe sarap mangarap… haaay…
I need to get rid of my writer’s block ASAP. I have no choice. So here I am, polluting cyberspace with senseless faltering words.
38grand is no joke.
- rent… 12,500 (brand new white walled 2 bedroom condo with access to a swimming pool, daycare center and playground. 3 minutes to the MRT by tricycle)
- Declan’s therapy … 6,000
- cable internet…1,800 (Destiny is the only ISP available at the condo, PLDT myDSL sucks anyway)
- cable tv… 500
- phone…720
- electricity…2,500 (although w/ an AC, i doubt it will stay this way)
- water… 500
- groceries… 5,000 (if the Doctor decides to put Declan on a GFCF diet, this might bloat)
- maid/yaya…2,500
- extra money… 5,000 (commuting, emergencies, haircuts, pasyal, and savings)
And I haven’t even told my mom yet. Facing her is worse than facing 10 VPs and the CEO. Worse than a thesis defense with all your teachers since prep.
Gawd. I have never been so scared in my life. The contract at the condo is one year. I don’t know if I will be able to afford it.
Worse. I don’t know if it will pay-off. Will Declan get better? Will all this help me make him better?
Is June too soon? Of course it is. But if i decide to stay for another month, another quarter, will it be too late? Declan is turning 5 in eight months. Still unable to speak, feed himself, mimic other people’s actions.
I just wish I could speak to someone who is undergoing something similar to what I’m going through. I’m tired of receiving polite empathy from friends who don’t know shit (and possibly, deep down, don’t give a shit) about this situation I’m in.
This is a statement you usually hear from supposedly angst ridden teens with too much time on their hands. I’d never thought I’d be saying this at age 27, but it’s true… I have never felt so alone.
April 2nd, 2006 at 6:37 pm
i think i’m one of the friends who don’t know much about declan’s condition. sana makahanap ka ng support group for that.
but still…. *hugs* 
gusto ko na mag-order ng panic button! LOL.
April 2nd, 2006 at 7:09 pm
Do u really need cable tv? If you think about it, it’s just additional gastos along with your electric bill.
I do wish you find someone who can relate to your plight, not that the rest of us don’t care but we may not really know how we can help. But if you do need it–help that is, I can truly say that I am willing to give. I’m just a message away…
April 2nd, 2006 at 11:02 pm
You’re just too talented to be worrying about where the money’s gonna come from Pam. Which begs the question…
Bakit freelance and work-at-home jobs? You resigning from the Big O?
Wag naman sana. The group’s gonna be left with boors, morons and half-wits.
Remain strong girl.
April 7th, 2006 at 1:48 pm
twin dapat yung yaya ni Declan maghangout with Jarred’s yaya (my nephew)para she’ll understand more about his case. Hmmm, i’m worried lang sa inaanak ko and you na it will be hard for the first few months kse it will be a new sorrounding for him.Medjo malilito sya and mafrufrustrate dahil he’s used to the same routine kailangan maging sobrang ready ka for that. I’m not sure if i’m suppose to say this here or dapat private message. hehehe! like dating incident hehehe! luv u twin! go for it!
May 4th, 2006 at 6:43 pm
curious lang ako. where exactly will you be renting? and my soon-to-be-six-year-old niece is autistic … and deaf. she’s lived with us ever since she was born. it is really tough. but seeing her smile and respond to us is the sweetest thing. kaya nyo yan pam!