sad to the core
I am just about done now with my brief episode of depression… as most have noticed with my new profile, waste away my productive hours learning the beauty of CSS and EMBED and the whole idea of music and background codes… no big deal actually because i just discovered the great music code generator via google… yezzz… we’re so "techie" now, graduating from the usual Save Target As right-clicking of scavenged mp3s.
Yes, music is very important in my life right now. Sad to admit, more important than film. My month’s soundtrack is a mixture of guitar & feedback mulit-layered sadcore– they call it and eerie, naked folk. Chairkicker music which makes a good background theme for slashing your wrists in a darkened room. The now defunct classic Low, the crunchy guitar atmosphere of Should, the haunting yet hummable sounds of Badman Records & Fractured Discs’ roster of artists… Robert Deeble, Alina Simone, Wet Blanket, Ill Lit, and Misc (one of my blog entry title’s was taken from one of their songs). Then there’s Elliot Smith (which I had found utterly boring then), Lorna, Dead Meadow, Ex Reverie. Of course there’s the beautiful, timeless rhythms of My Bloody Valentine and The Cranes (checkout "Jewel" playing when you load my profile page).
All this has got me thinking. Back before the giddy and light headed mood I felt during the Cinemalaya ruckus, I was heavily into twee and female fronted guitar pop. And now in gloomy September, the above mentioned music was what i was so into. So is the music I listen to directly influencing my moods? Or is it the other way around? Is it a reflection of my moods?
If you want to be pseudo intellectual (although this has to happen with matching cheap booze in large quantities)– is art/ media a reflection of society, or is it a means to influence/ reshape society?
Wow mehn.
I guess a better question would be, why am I asking these things and writing in my blog when I should be working?
Aheheh…
